So, this site, and adjoining podcast has been quite a journey to get
up and running. I am going to be quite blunt, and say that I have
faced spiritual attack, after spiritual attack. I wish to point to one
of them now that happened just recently, and explain how I dealt with
it, so that it can be a help to someone who may be fighting their own
battles.
I had ben needing to record an episode and I sat down to do so I had
been struggling all day as it was, because my mind was not in a good
place, but when I sat down to record, this feeling intensified about
10 fold.
This showed itself by a feeling like I had a pit of snakes writhing in
my gut, a complete fear, that I could not shake. Eating was out of the
question, and all I could do was pray. I began to sweat, and my head
was pounding. It was in this condition that I was attempting to
record. So, I did the following.
First, I reminded myself that God has not given me a spirit of fear,
but of power love and a sound mind.
Second, I reached out to a good friend, and asked them to pray,
explained the situation.
I was able to get the recording done, but the feelings did not lift.
In fact, they continued in to the next morning, when I in my morning
devotionals came across this psalm, 91, where it talks about not
fearing the night terrors at night, or the arrows that fly at you
during the day.
This psalm went on to explain that it is God who covers you under his
wing. It was after this reading, and some prayer, that this thing this
fear finally lifted.
What you ask was I afraid of, of launching this very site which was
odd in itself given the fact that I am an entrepreneur who builds
websites for a living.
I write and explain my battle with fear, and all that goes with it, in
hopes that someone hear can read this, and understand two truths,
first, in the Bible the Lord commands that we fear not, or do not be
afraid. Second, that greater is he the Lord Jesus than he who is in
the world.
While I didn’t realize it then, I know that God is still good, even
when I am afraid… The fact is, God is bigger than fear, emotion,
everything. Sometimes you have to remind yourself of that, and then
take authority over these things.
Is this helpful to you? Do you have any thoughts? Please leave them in
the comments.
God bless, Teresa Blaes
