I live in fear, it is what keeps me back. I use my past hurts as an excuse to protect me. If I was not abused then I would be who I set out to be. But, this is not what God wants for me, or for you. He wants us to be fearless. I mean after all we have His power in us. To access that power is a whole nother process.
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In today’s reading we hear about the tower of Babel. How when people come together with a common goal, and common language they can do anything. Let’s look at this from the perspective of conquering our fears.
Hebrews 10:24-25
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
How do you feel when life is overwhelming you and you do not know where to turn? Even God seems distant and inaccessible. For me, that is when my thoughts ruminate. Worry, fear, anger, and depression are my constant companions.
You feel like no one would understand, and you have no one to talk to. There is no support in helping you through the situation.
I often feel this way because I allow fear to hold me back. My past hurts controls me more than I allow God to bless me. I do not trust that He would be able to. I mean, after all, He was there the whole time I was being abused! He did not stop it then, why would He stop it in the future? What I need to acknowledge is our evil nature, how He blessed us with free will. Plus Satan is, small g, god of this world right now.
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God knows the pain we will live through because of the evils in the world. That is why He gave us tools to get through our struggles. First He gave us His son, and Holy Spirit to save us from our sins, and to guide us through this world. Through His Word, the Bible, we can learn who He is and be able to access these blessings. Next, He gave us each other. While relationships can be hard, can even be abusive. Many times if we learn to live for God relationships are such a blessing. Friends, relatives, marriages can help us see God.
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Let me share with you a recent event that happened in my life. Actually it happened yesterday. God has been convicting me about how I hold on to my past hurts and build a wall around myself. He shows me repeatedly how my rages turn people away does not protect me, but makes me more miserable. How living like this is not letting His love shine through me.
So, I prayed and went in search of some Bible study or group or something to help me heal from sexual abuse. What He lead me to was Path to Sexual Healing Bible study.
In this study it is highly recommended that one does not do this alone. But, I was alone. I reached out to close church friends I have online. No one appeared to be able to go through the study with me. I prayed and started the study on my own thinking, well God you brought me to this, you will bring me through it.
One good friend who I rarely get a chance to talk to lately reached out to me. She had no idea what I was trying to tackle, she just wanted to talk. I thought, well ok God, she is busy and we do not connect like we used to, but I will ask.
I was so surprised! She said yes, she would commit herself to meet with me weekly. She would look into getting the book and support me through it!
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We turn to God first, obey Him and He will provide what we need when we need it. Then, as in the Tower of Babel together to conquer the struggles in this world. He made us to do life together, and together we can do amazing things!
If you need someone to help you, to talk to, to support you we are here for you. Please pray, and then reach out. You are not alone in this world.
